The Potential for Perfection

So it has been a long while since I last blogged. Finals were extremely intense this semester and although classes ended on the 22nd, I have needed the past few days to unwind and decompress and settle into the summer 2010 flow. This is my first summer off maybe in the past 20 or so years in my life, growing up in camp and then always feeling the need to do something I have never had an open 3 months of gorgeous weather before. Since my early childhood I have been involved in Girl Scout Camp (my mom was the camp director so I went from camper to CIT to darkroom specialist.. lol), as a college student I worked at Ritz Camera and at camp, in the past 4 years as a mother I have been in school pursuing my MFA going all year round including the ever so fun densely-packed-make-you-say-uncle-summer semesters. This is my first summer where I can be at my pace. And this is where the potential for perfection comes in.

With all of the hard work I have done these past 3 years toward my MFA, and now finally coming to my impending fall 2010 graduation, there still remains the potential to do great work. My thesis at this point has the potential to be magnificent, as all creations/projects/intentions/ideas etc etc have at this stage of existence. This is the perfect place the idea of work exists in prior to the artist/creator turning it into physical material substance. Before being introduced to the public and receiving praise, scrutiny, or the death blow. I am creating a seed in my work and whether or not it becomes great art depends on how the seed germinates in the rich soils of current humanity. Will it rot and be consumed, recycled in the dirt or will it thrive and with its addition add one more component to the intricate balance that is this experience. Will my visions, my art be well received?

It depends on how I go about the next few months. My career, my MFA, the strength of my thesis, my life's trajectory will be set during this summer. I have the free time to immerse myself in my creative processes, and the free time to think of how best to market me, the free time to shoot every night, or the option to put my feet up and relax.....

Enough long thought... decisions, decisions, so much plotting and planning.. when all I want to do is take pictures..

I am going to come back to the now and go do some yoga.. I am trying to get fit this summer too..

BTW.. went with Johnny Nunez, "O", and my Dawny all over the city last night.. from the Frank Lucas book signing to a penthouse party of a well known mogul to the Styles P book release party, to BK back to Lotus.. maybe last night is what brought back to reality.. while I am sitting debriefing from my semester, Johnny Nunez who I respect and want to emulate is doing this every night.... hard work never ends on the path to success..

here are a few pics for you from last night... and for me yoga then my daughters private swim lesson then my daddy's house.. :)